Toward the end of 2020, I separated from my husband of 20 years. About a week after he moved out I started talking about my experience through a series of TikTok videos.

2020

In 2020 I started talking to TikTok when no one else would listen. My husband of 20 years had just moved out and I was sitting on the floor of my bedroom, trying to figure out what to do next. I couldn’t think. So I let my intuition speak instead.

@natlajune on TikTok.

Marital Coercion is the term I began using when I was learning about sexual coercion and couldn’t find any information about this within the dynamic of marriage and committed relationships.

2021

I spent the next year learning about sexual coercion and how religion and misogyny and patriarchy had taught my husband and me that my body belonged to him once married and my bodily autonomy was second to his sexual pleasure.

I argued with men just like my then husband, while I was in separation and headed toward divorce. I was also talking with a therapist every week to get my head clear about all of the things I had experienced in my marriage and what people were saying on social media. 

As I learned more about these men and how they saw the world, their marriage, and their wives, I got a glimpse into my own husband and how he had treated me. I knew he would never change and I would never be safe, and the divorce had to go through.

It was in December I received a letter from a husband with the same name as mine. He was deeply remorseful and grateful for my content that helped him see his behavior and get help. This was ultimately the fuel that kept me talking on TikTok every day. Just one husband changed was everything to me. 

2022

Ready to move on, I ended sessions with my therapist and I began seeing a somatic healer. She helped me get in touch with my body again through yoga and other spiritual practices that work directly with the nervous system to heal things more deeply than modern psychology can. 

 

Picture: Millie the misandrist is a character I play on TikTok. She's an old school British feminist who hates men (I don't, but she can say some of the mean things I wouldn't).

2023

Year three, I started dating again, stepping out in faith with a man who turned out to be everything I didn’t know I wanted in a man. We had a great time together and I shared him with everyone on TikTok. Men and women were inspired by our connection, but it was never going to be permanent. 

Neither of us were ready for anything serious and we separated in late Spring, early Summer, but that short relationship catapulted me into a spiritual awakening. I began experiencing vivid dreams, one in which I was visited by a hooded entity in a church who called me by a name I had never heard before.

I also began opening up to an awareness of psychic abilities that had been there all my life, but I had been told to make nothing of it. It was other psychics who told me it was real and I should keep watching and listening to hone these skills. I soon learned that much of what I had experienced in my youth had gone dormant as my nervous system shut down during abuse. When my system came back online through healing from that trauma, these abilities began getting stronger too. 

The breakup with "Navy Guy" and the spiritual awakening brought me to an understanding of unconditional love in a way I didn't know was possible and I spent the rest of the year sharing what I was learning through dreams and channeled messages.

2024

Awakening to love, I began channeling messages through poetry. I made the hashtag #lovemakeslifelisten to share what I was hearing, and compiled the poems into a book. My content began to bridge the gap between coercive abuse, and divine love. I was carving a path from victim to healer and showing others how to follow. I described a rope bridge being built in front of me. I don't have time to look down at the ravine below me. I have faith that the next step will appear in front of me at just the right time and I take a step toward it in faith. When it appears, I'm excited and a little surprised each time, and I share that on TikTok, Instagram, and Threads. 

I self-published my book, Love Makes Life Listen in November.

2025

This year I’m writing “The Book”, the one people have been asking if I’m writing. I haven’t been called until now. Subscribe on Substack to read as I write! 

Mending Me: 1000 days publicly deconstructing faith, marriage, sex and love